future.

I have a problem.

I need a new job that hopefully utilizes my degree but doesn't require me to actually practice the specific field, where I can be around people without having to meet their every unnecessary need, and also a position that will challenge me, where I want to meet the challenge because the task at hand is connected enough to my value system that I care about the outcome. Any ideas?

When I search for jobs online, there are a lot of things that I think to myself, "I could do that". The second part of the thought is usually, "but I don't really want to". It's not that I don't want to work. I am not lazy, I don't think. I just don't want to go to a job everyday that I don't enjoy. And ultimately, I want to be a mother, so it's not like I am looking for a lifelong career. And eventually, I would like to go back to school, so if I was looking for a career, it would probably be found after the second bout of secondary education.

Maybe I should just go back to school and live off loans.

Or maybe I should stick my current job situation out for a few more months while enjoying my current living situation, and then teach English in a foreign country until I figure out what I want to do.

Or maybe I should go to pastry school.

Or culinary school.

Or just go to sleep and not wake up until a dream reveals to me what I should do. Right now, that option feels the most right. Yawn.